you stole a kiss and stole my heart
made me a fool right from the start

if i were you
i'd dare not speak
i'd run like hell
in hopes of seeing tomorrow

it's such a travesty
the way you say our love should be
its such a tragedy
think you can just break my heart and leave me
well, you better run

playing for fun...
Leave me undone.

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great...Unholy thoughts...Thinking of my FIRST girlfriend ever...i can't help it...Damn it damn it...


I'm pretty sure its the same her way.......................


We can't escape this :(

marijuana, stress and depression

So, during these past 4 months or so I have been feeling highly stressed and depressed. The reason for is probably because I'm overwhealmed about college. My degree, Engineering, isn't quite something you can just "pass" through.

So, I searched online for solutions for my depression/stress. Among all the other solutions I found, Marijuana was one of them. 

As a very judgamental marijuana smoker, I believe that marijuana intake TEMPORARILY helps you. I'm not going to pretend that marijuana is this great medicine when it comes to this, because it's not. Depression is something that lingers, while mairjuana is simply a substance that will make you calm down for however long you're high for. Pot isn't that much of a big deal, gosh.  I still think freely about things when I'm high, so what's the point?

I really think that weed is a substance that just reflects how you are. Plus, I can see how some experts say that depressed people may rely on marijuana too much. Wouldn't you if you had a "quick" sutil fix for your problem? But, unfortunately, marijuana is not the solution. The solution is getting out there and doing it. No matter whether you're high or not.

In summary, I believe people with depression and anxiety should smoke marijuana occasionaly but should not rely on it. Pot makes you relax if you WANT to relax, and in my case, my friend, i can tell you that I can't relax. I'm tense always, and smoking sometimes makes no difference, sometimes it does. It might be due to how I view smoking nowadays and the state of mind I'm in when I start to inhale, though.

Top it off

I feel kind of bad when I meet a fellow pot smoker that smokes cigarettes, too. I mean, wasn't smoking pot all about how natural it is? Cigarettes fuck you up good. If you mix pot with a cigarette, yes you get higher, but I do believe though that it's like the cigarette's harmful effects are enhanced by doing that.

The researches about how "a joint of marijuana is equivalent to 5 cigarettes" really are a bunch of shit to me. The researches are not only skeptical but they do not consider the fact that SO MANY people smoke a cig to "top it off" after smoking marijuana. Everybody knows that data is wrong and all you have to do is google it; So many websites stating the truth: Research has been done and marijuana is not harmful at all, but if you want to die, go ahead and "top it off".

For our fellow pot smokers, I would recommend watching this documentary video called "Hooked - Illegal drugs". It talks about all kinds of drugs but I love the approach it has to marijuana. Please not this is from the history channel or something ( It slips my mind right now ) and it talks about how pot was made illegal for political reasons. How a candidate for presidency used pot as means to get up on the rank. He portrayed pot as a bad thing by broadcasting advertisements of destroyed families, people really hyper and killing other people. Now, come on? That's absurd. We all know pot chills you.

A friend's dad works at this bar and he says everytime there's a certain concert there's only fights going on but when it's a reggae concert everything is chill and nobody is killing eachother because the other person hit on whothefuckknow's girlfriend.


I drank so much beer yesterday hanging out with friends that I got smashed. Puked before going to bed and everything was spinning. Woke up this morning and let's say...the beer found a way to get out of my body that wasn't my mouth. That much being said (and that wasn't even my worst experience with alcohol of course) is it really worth it? By drinking much alcohol with your friends at a certain night you are betting on that night. You are betting that that night is going to be so good that it will make your next day of suffering and hang overs worth it. A next day of headaches, bad mood, lack of motivation...That's what I have right now. And let me tell you, it's not worth it. I hate being drunk, I feel like my body also does. A chemistry teacher said once your brain only actually stops developing at around 21ish (hence drinking age I suppose). He said alcohol destroys your brain cells like a bitch SPECIALLY if you're under that age. That should be fine for who just wants to work for the rest at their lives at like Mc Donnald's or something (Nothing against it). But I have big dreams. I want to make it big and a few less neurons WILL make a difference to me.